Maybe it's just a  coincidence? Maybe it's the hard fact that I'm stubborn and hardheaded? Maybe i just can't accept the fact that it happened and it hurt like hell? Once you've been hurt there's no going back. You just have to move on like it never happened and you have to suck it up. But when is it enough that you just can't hide the drowning, insecure, hurt person on the inside? Huh! It's exhausting keeping up with my self inflicted emotions

Wicked Game

       Love...it'll kill you or make you stronger. I believe love can have a balance. A balance between safety and unsurety. It's a scary thing to love someone with everything you possess. When you really find the person you choose to be with you ARE sure of your heart but you never know the true intentions of another's. I guess that's the gamble of love. It's a wicked game of passionate torment. A game you don't want to stop playing because there's always that "what if", "what if I give up now and I've messed up"? "What if this is the person I'll spend the rest of my life with?" We want to be wanted, loved, adored and someone who will love our flaws when we hate them the most. Funny isn't it? We become weak for one person who sees us to the naked eye. But that's the gamble. That's the wicked game.

Tonight's Thoughts

       Well it's that time of year again when all the rushing thoughts of "Christmas is coming up and I have no idea what I'm going to get my family or a loved one or maybe in others how in the heck am I supposed to afford anything"? But, really it should come down to is spending time with the ones you love and unfortunately we misinterprete the true meaning of Christmas. Following in my Christian faith my whole life I still try to remember what the true meaning of CHRISTmas is. I often find myself trying to shove my beliefs back down my throat from the fear of thinking I may offend someone or maybe nobody wants to hear that. But the words I tend to forget and that captivate my mind..."But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven."